why isn't stuff weightless

last night slovakia left. tonight, hungary departs. 4 hours from now. i'm supposed to depart with bean in 24 hours. not happening. there is a lack of dedication to completing visa processes at the czech consulate in LA and i therefore will be living in cali for a bit. slightly disappointed. feeling fine about it if it's only a week or two. past that - terrifying thoughts of lots of emotional, mental, physical preparation falling sliding down the drain due to being in a weird state of limbo.

however - still have an overwhelming sense of peace and security - being aware that this is just a small thread in a much bigger story and picture. individual lives are really not that big of a deal in the scheme of things - so there is no need for worry and discouragement when the world turns in a way i didn't expect or desire. the world will turn regardless... so i'm just going w/ the rotation currently